Monthly Archives: March 2011

11:34 PM 3/22

in seven months and
nineteen minutes from right now
i will turn forty


speed dial on time

Taking a cue from Li Jia, the protagonist of Kitchen Chinese, one of the latest books I’ve read I am seizing the moment to write. Free of guilt and disappointment for a week’s worth of posts scribbled in notebooks, ideas jotted on post-its, fleeting sparks of something and then nothing swirling in my brain, allowing the words to flow on the page like writing feng shui.

I’ve been out of sorts lately, I don’t know if it’s the wishy-washy change of weather; the solemnity of the news from Japan to Libya; the fast-pace change and evolution at work or maybe it’s an undercurrent of what this year is: the final 284 days of my 30s.

What I’ve come to know is that once you graduate from college and hit the ground running with work and life, time moves so much faster than you can ever possibly imagine. It’s not as if someone can warn you about this speed dial on time, it just happens, and the reality of it is intangible, how it affects you, the choices you make. In fact, not until you live through it may you determine, and discover that it is a marvelous time for self-realization and reflection.


give back, not up

Abstain forty days:
alcohol, sugar, cussing
guilty pleasures, too.

Pick your deadly sin:
Nine thousand six hundred hour
detox for the soul.

Learn to sustain faith.
Moderate your suffering.
This modern thinking:

hard rules to follow
when progress, technology
want us to be “free”;

where virtual rules,
instant gratification
sets a precedent.

Open your heart
Think beyond the holy book.
Enter rebellion

Change it up, really.
Give til there’s nothing to give,
give back, look forward.